30 Days of Meditation
It’s all in your mind right?
I decided to start my “30 Days Of” series with meditation.
Why? Not sure. Astral projection and levitation seem cool, and I was fairly certain I could achieve both of those things in 30 days (I fell a little short).
No…it sounded like a good place to start, and it’s something that’s always interested me.
I’ve dabbled in it before. And I guess you could consider what I did for the 30 days kind of/sort of dabbling as well.
But this was a more of an intentional dabbling…if that makes sense…(it doesn’t).
Here are my notes from my 30 days of mediation. At the end of this post I included a summary. Kind of a “what have I learned” from the whole experience. What I liked and what I didn’t like etc.
Day 1 / November 1st / AM: 8:33AM – 8:43 AM
I did 10 minutes sitting up straight with legs crossed on my couch.
I concentrated on my breathing. Long deep inhales and exhales. Maybe 4 seconds each one. Had a few itches and thought “are you supposed to scratch itches when you’re meditating or ignore them”?
Yeah…I totally scratched them ?
Had a bunch of seemingly random thoughts cross my mind and tried to just let them come on go without dwelling on them at all.
Day 1 (pt 2) 8:15 PM – 8:25 PM
(NOTE: I initially started doing 2x a day, but dialed that back to 1x a day as I went on).
Have only really meditated in the AM before, so this was different. Much different vibe after a full day of working/stress etc.
Focusing on my breath and was thinking “Untangle” on the inhale, and “Release” on exhale. Trying to rid my body of the feeling of being tense due to a super busy day. Was harder than it was in the AM.
I kept wondering when the 10 minutes would be up. Kept wanting to look at the clock. Don’t look! Don’t look! I kept telling myself…I never checked. But that 10 minutes felt 10x longer than this AM.
Day 2 / November 2nd / 9:29AM – 9:39AM
Late start. Actually woke up sick. Can’t breathe through my nose so just worked with what I had.
Actually started feeling nauseous, so the whole “30 days of” is being tested pretty much immediately. Which I look at as a positive. Do you want to do this or not? Work through it.
Repeated the words (internally) Inhale “open” / exhale “release”. Open to the universe. Consciousness. What have you.
Release of the stress in my body. Wherever it may be.
Open and release.
Will try to do much earlier tomorrow
Day 2 (pt 2) 7:05PM – 7:15 PM
Felt better so it was easier. Very relaxing.
Note to self: DON’T leave windows open. Way too much noise outside.
Day 3 / November 3rd / 7:50AM-8AM
Very easy and comfortable today. Just focused on “relax, open, receive”
Day 4 / November 4th / 8:06AM-8:16AM
Just spent the last 75 minutes going through day job emails and am feeling super frustrated and angry.
Using this session as a tool to let all of that go. Will focus on “letting go”. Which seems to come up a lot for me.
Focused on an ice blue light going through the top of my head and slowly down thru my whole body. Relaxing each part as it worked it’s way down.
From the top of my head. Eyes. Ears. Cheeks and jaw (where I keep a lot of tension). All the way down to my toes.
Because I went In feeling like I “was” stressed. Stress isn’t something we get. It’s something we DO.
I feel a little better after. Ten minutes went by extremely fast.
Maybe because I spent a lot of it trying to relax my whole body part by part.
Day 4 (pt 2) / 8:07PM-8:17PM
Had a realization. When I get urges, like “ Oh my God I’m soooo hungry I have to cut this short and go eat”, or “Argh I have an itch”, just because the urge is there doesn’t mean it needs to be acted on. I don’t have to do anything. Just BE.
Day 5 / November 5th
Totally forgot to meditate today. I am a total failure at life!!!
Haha. Nah…oh well, shit happens.….going forward I need to treat a Saturday like a weekday. The day just seemed to get away from me. But I did manage to do 5 minutes at 8:50PM. Was very rushed and out of sorts so I am not really counting this.
Day 6 / November 6th / 7:23AM-7:33 AM
Got an earlier start than yesterday. Nothing really to report. Really felt just kind of meh. Couldn’t get into it.
Day 7 / November 7th / 8:12 AM to 8:22 AM
Did it sitting up in my bed today. Wait that sounds wrong…
…or maybe it sounds right hahah.
Lauren was away for first week of the month, but is back now, so no more meditating on the couch in the AM. Unless I want to meditate with an audience (no thank you please).
Was more comfortable for sure. Noticing I can get into it very fast now. I get very deeply relaxed very quickly.
Alas, I still can’t levitate ?
Day 8 / November 8th / 8:27AM to 8:37AM
Another morning where I was already highly stressed out before meditating.
Had a great early morning. Up at 4:40AM. Gym. Home. Voted. Walked the dog. Got coffee.
Feeling great…until I opened my emails. Led to massive stress. I found myself really looking forward to the session. Was a welcome break and served as a reset button for the rest of my day.
REALLY like being able to reset my day/mindset at any point by taking 10 minutes to close my eyes and just breathe. Very cool.
Day 8 / November 8th (pt 2) /6:24PM – 6:35 PM
In bedroom. Really liking this now. Again very deep fast. Felt my body get very heavy. For some reason I kept thinking of Thanos from Marvel? Yeah, that makes zero sense.
Day 9 / November 9th
Ugh. Kill me. I won’t use this space to be political, but lets just say it was a really bad day for me.
Stayed up until almost 4AM watching election coverage.
This is exactly why I SHOULD have meditated. But didn’t. Dropped the ball.
Day 10 / November 10th / 8:00AM-8:10 AM
Skipped day 9. Looking back I probably should have meditated yesterday as it was a great opportunity to test it out in a time of crisis. Things were mentally all screwed up for me, so it would have been cool to see what would have happened if I meditated. Opportunity lost, but that ok.
Today was good. Relaxing. I needed a break from my head and all the events of the last two days.
Day 11 / November 11th / 9:26AM-9:36 AM
Today I tried listening to Tibetan Gongs and Bells. Didn’t like it. But like the idea of doing this with some kind of monotonous sounds or music. Maybe Tibetan chanting?
Day 12 / November 12th / 7:27AM-7:37 AM
Getting Better at letting thoughts come and just discarding them without dwelling on them.
Day 13 November 13th / 1:10PM – 1:22 PM
Did with Tibetan chants this time. Really didn’t connect with me as much as I thought it would have.
My mind was extremely scattered. Mostly darker thoughts. I think I will do these as Kelly Howell guided meditations from now on.
Day 14 / November 14th / 8:57AM-9:07AM
Did ten minutes and forgot to log what I did.
But I also listened to Kundalini instructions for next time (I purchased a guided meditation from Kelly Howell called “Awakening Kundalini”. The instructions were mostly background on what Kundalini is, as well as three different breathing techniques: Ocean Breath, Breath of Fire, and the Root Lock).
Ocean Breathing is an even, steady breathing. Inhale and exhale at the same tempo with no holding of the breath. You should make almost a hissing noise when doing it, from your throat being slightly tensed. It’s super relaxing to breathe rhythmically like that.
Breath of Fire is nuts. It’s a very rapid inhale/exhale done through the nose. Supposed be done at (I think) three inhale/exhales per second. Really expand your stomach on the inhale, and contract it on the exhale. Like a bellows. I have trouble doing it for more than 60 seconds at a time.
When you do it you can literally feel electricity in your body. It’s amazingly invigorating.
The Root Lock is breathing in deeply, tightening your sphincter and lower abdomen (lock), exhale, then “release the lock”.
Tomorrow I am going to do longer/guided 30 minute meditations.
Day 14 / November 14th (pt 2)/ 6:37PM-6:47PM
Also did a quick ten minutes at night.
Day 15 / November 15th / forgot to log the time, but it was 30 minutes.
Did the awakening kundalini guided meditation. Wow. 30 min went by faster than the 10 minute sessions. I went fairly deep here.
For the first time I was able to actually see something with my eyes closed. I saw a glimmer of outer space. And a lizard looking back at me. WTF right? It was very fleeting, but cool.
Felt great. Like I went somewhere or began to explore something.
Day 16 / November 16th / 8:52-AM – 9:22AM
Kundalini. Again I’m amazed how fast that goes by. Didn’t feel quite as deep as yesterday. Going to try the bedroom tomorrow where it’s darker
Day 17 / November 17th / 9:11AM-9:41 AM
Much better in bedroom. Darker. Still amazed how fast 30 minutes goes by.
Saw an Owl? Not clearly. But was pretty obvious to me it was an Owl.
Day 18 / November 18th / 9:30 AM – 10:00AM.
Kundalini. This time did it sitting in a chair as opposed to sitting on my couch or bed. No noticeable difference. Felt it was difficult to get too deep today for some reason.
Day 19 / November 19th / 6:06AM-6:16AM
Just ten minutes in bedroom. Still relaxing but still not very deep. There’s something about it I love for sure. Just not “ here” yet.
Day 20 / November 20th
Didn’t meditate today.
Day 21/ November 21st / 9:31AM-9:44AM
Changed it up again today. From the book “Love Yourself Like Your Life Depended on It” (HIGHLY recommend):
Listened to music. Inhale “I love myself”. Exhale = whatever thoughts/feelings come up.
I wound up thinking inhale “I love myself”. Exhale “the universe loves me”.
Pictured all the light in the universe pouring down in me through my head and then my entire body.
First was listening to songs from the Inception soundtrack. Wasn’t feeling it at all. Switched to Passacaglia from Bear McCreary / Battlestar Galactica
Day 22 / November 22nd / 9:32AM-9:37AM
Only 5 minutes today. But did same as yesterday. The “I love myself” one with music.
Day 23 – 25 / November 23rd , 24th, 25th
Big time oooops. I allowed Thanksgiving stuff to get in the way. Now I’ll defintely hurt my chances at levitation.
Day 26 / November 26th /6:52PM-7:04pm
Did an “I love myself” inhale and exhale. That was it. When thoughts came I pictured them detaching like a little red balloon.
Day 27 / November 27th / 6:03PM – 6:35PM
Did in bedroom in dark.I feel like I definitely go deeper when the room I am in is super dark.
Day 28 / November 28th / 9:18AM – 9:28AM
“I love myself” inhale and exhale. That’s it. I like this as much as the longer ones. And really love the idea of reprogramming my brain with this repetition.
Day 29 / November 29th / 6:51pm- 7:04 pm
Ok, so I didn’t really want to do this at all today. But realizing tomorrow is the last of my 30 days, I felt like I had to.
Did “I love myself” listening to Passacaglia/BSG again. First the version from the show. Then the all piano version.
Halfway through that I said fuck it. I really want to listen to Home Sweet Home right now.
Song has been anchored into me for over 30 years. It always lights me up.
“But Gregg, you can’t meditate to Motley Crue”! Says who?
I know. Its weird. But like I just mentioned, I said fuck it, let’s try.
And the second those first piano chords came on, my soul lit up and smiled. I mean it- I felt it happen.
The whole experience was ridiculously cool. I just felt totally still and enjoyed breathing with all this going on around me.
I felt like this totally calm being in the eye of a hurricane. It’s was soooo badass!!! I think I’m on to something with this.
See? And I didn’t want to do it. Lesson here in doing things when you don’t “feel” like it. Sometimes, magic happens!!
Day 30 / November 30th / 6:57pm – 7:08
Again tried this listening to whatever I wanted to. Session wasn’t that good though, because I think I was preoccupied with how I was going to write this post up etc.
I really enjoyed this. I can absolutely see the benefit of meditating and I plan on incorporating it into my daily practice full time.
I loved being able to “reset” myself whenever I wanted to.
I feel like what I did was just barely scratch the surface here. So much more I can play around with. Different breathing techniques. Different guided meditations.
I felt good about the fact that I put no pressure on myself. If I missed a day (or days), so what. Just pick it up tomorrow and keep it going.
Meditated 24 out of 30 days
Total time meditating: 388 minutes = 6.46 hours